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Tempest

2009-11-29T06:15:00.000-08:00

Wind blows up my hairs
Surges through me
Give me a sweet day
Reminisce its appearance

Storm crush my body
Bringing my soul out
From my body
And it shall be vanish

Tempest blast away my spirit
Drag me to anguish
Suffering every lunge of it
That was never be changed

Live after that moment
I won't forget this disaster
That tempest is just from a wind
My very first mistake

Windy day after now
Never simply judge it
Impaled in my mind
That wind can be deadly

Night Walk in the park =)

2009-10-09T21:45:00.001-07:00

Cool, i just like the breeze of the park at night. =P Well anyway, this place still give me a good time enjoying the beautiful view of the park at night. It was at Desa Park City XD

Alright, the world is going to come an end xD...

Nice Dark View...

Going to Take a better snap of it next time =)

Long Dead..

2009-10-09T03:15:00.001-07:00

Well this place been idle since after i came back.. Well gonna pack things up soon =X

Form 6 life X_X

2009-06-03T02:54:00.000-07:00

Well as soon as i came back, this nightmare started to haunt me out =.= its form 6
With all mt hope, i want to finish this as song as possible. Let it 1 year bah... After this its over. Anyway my dusty blog seem to be facing some problem =). Give me some time and i will figure it out meanwhile waiting for my friend to come back from PLKN with their memory and my pictures X_X!!!

Skating is so much painful!

2009-03-15T19:51:00.000-07:00

Well went skating at saturday XD Awesome since is my 1st time to go =X Quite crowded with a lot of sluts and gangs. WoW im quite impressive with those expert that doing stunts around the arena hahaha Anyway i bought my DVD RAM rom finally from CyCom before getting my feet pain! =P Although I fell down more than 10 times, but it is good that i master it in a moment =P.

Just having trouble navigating and accelerate. Have Fun next time.

A shot of the Roller Sports World. Quite crowded with skaters around hanging at the spots. Well look who is at the bottom right of the picture!

Hi Davin! Enjoying being snap by me? xD

The rollershoe for skating! with 4 wheels and geared with brake system. Can accelerate by pushing sideway xD! But it stinks though.

Well updated again. Next time more stories.

Last day of work.

2009-03-15T19:35:00.000-07:00

Well finally im done with my telemarketing since im going to national service at 19 March. Gonna laugh myself out =P. Getting my paycheck soon. Well i took some shot as a memories of 2 months more working here.

Kelana Jaya Giant

Kelana Mall!

UniTAR not UTAR XD!

And lastly Amphibia Digital ! Where i work for 2 months and more! Thanks for all the Amphibians that i known included:
- Gary
- Harish
- Jeremy
- Josephine
- Vinod
- Vincent
- Elaine
- Olivia
- Ivee
- Lia
- Baharin
- Darell
- Derrick

Went to Genting Highland

2009-03-15T18:37:00.000-07:00

At March 6, i take leave from going work because im sick =). Oh well since my family is going up too, i will just go genting with them. Since my father claimed that genting authorities giving him a free single room, well why not? And we find out that room is pathetic small =X. Well remember! FREE stuff are CHEAP XD (sorry forgot to take images for it). Haha better than nothing. Had this "battered scrotum" for dinner? Aikz seem no choice for me.

Haha Genting is so nice =)

Bizzare!

YAY! Ferry! WheeL xD

This is where i played PS3 in Genting. Guitar Hero World Tour Seem too hard for me hehe.
Street Fighter 4 ROCKS. Kicking the shit out of my brother xD. Didnt took the pic for it >.<

Why are you looking at Uncle Gary 0.O? Something on my face?

Favourite teddy! Mr Bean DOlly!

Am I in a jungle? Im in Kiddy pool =P

Clown hogging the stall! OMG

Random Scenery Shot

Outdoor Theme park!

This is awesome!

Tower of DOOM!

Isabelle riding horsey! Hurray!

Another ride but...Look closely

This is the ride picture. But what is so wrong is...(sorry image is inverted)

25 TOKEN??!! I juts put one for her =.= but 25 TOKEN!?

Well since its free, isabelle played for 7 token then we ciao.

Too bored looking herself enjoying xD

Well going back home after this ride, just another updated =)

Wretched

2009-03-05T05:09:00.000-08:00

Been staring at scenery these days, hoping i could look for one nice image. Well, the continous working at office is getting me more tired and sick. Maybe i want to get a day off. Just a day. These day the pain are getting more vicious, lashing my body again, making my sad day. Urgh, when will it stop. WHEN? just i was asking myself, i was thinking on her, should i just ask her if she want to go out. Whatever i guess im just dreaming. Haha how could it possible...

Construction

2009-02-19T08:28:00.000-08:00

Working for my blog currently =X
Hehe under construction
Sorry for anything necessary

Freedom

2009-01-28T01:12:00.000-08:00

Earn your respect by free yourself from the control :

Free us from thread
Redeem from salvation
Ego which they desired
Elevation is to be done
Domain must be set free
Open the mind of dictator
Mankind can be saved

Remember have ur self-esteem back which truly is meaningful to life

The Devil Spell

2009-01-28T00:58:00.000-08:00

Limbs of him
Crushed with lashes of heat
Devoured by demolition
Left its soul
Remnants is seen

Demon howls
Sheer of terrors
Mankind's fear
Spread rapidly
Face with glory

A Chinese New Year Born A New Guy

2009-01-23T00:23:00.000-08:00

Its 3 more days before the Chinese new year. The past must be wiped from my mind. Looking to my future is what should i think of. Never again i will fall to this witch seduction. The temptation is gone for good. For now, new year for me is a new time that i gonna use well for betterment of myself. =) Happy Chinese New Year to all who is reading my post.

A Slap to Remember

2009-01-21T17:50:00.000-08:00

~Dedicated to a SLUT and BITCH who was afterall my pretendious good friend~

A time of my life
Lay an eye on you
Assume you are best
The greatest words from you
Every words touched my heart
Proud of you

Somehow you bring me terrifieds result
A unexpected event
But im glad to understand
From your feign statement
Blinded for a time
Its time to open the chest

Shocked when the truth in line
Its just a trick from you
Just to cover your devious mind
Your act has dissapointed me
For its judgement you suffered
Is your own shame to be strike.

And ever again i would swear
i will never ever forgive you
For the angel side
Is a death angel disguised
See me again in future
And i give ya a good slap to remember

1st assignment of the life

2009-01-08T21:30:00.000-08:00

Well my 1st job...hmm to be a one who help to advertise items in our website....need to call cilent and ask details about it....key in datas....Telemarketer...this office job actually was a fine job to me.. hahaha..i could just smile and do my work while get to online and chat...well although i might get to busy mode from time to time...learning in this job is kinda worth as gaining experience for it...i would appreciate it until i finish my contract until 30 March 2009. Well form6 after this...Guess who's back with a baritone voice hahahaha! D.G!!!! Love you guys and girls in choir...goodluck for those who facing SPM soon especially for my form 5 juniors... =P good luck and all the best. Meanwhile im free for any helps if you need me +_+ im always ready for offering helps =) but not something lame and stupid =(. kekeke

Sad to say, Sick to smile

2009-01-05T06:37:00.000-08:00

This is how life is. Perhaps i should have done so much. What do i get anyway? even i helped to take over, its such a pathetic effort that no one appreciate at all. This is embarassing. Why? Why? WHY? i started notice i dont even have a position nor a status in their mind. How stupid im would be a guy who is willing to sacrifice for time to do that. This is a stubborn effort, D.G. and you ask 3 of ur friends and come cover your blows. What the heck in the world you are doing? Is this a classmates gathering? Humph.. very well i do not know what you are thinking also..... this is what we called..... life is stupid....just i agreed with Wai Hoong's favourite words................

Depression

2008-12-04T03:28:00.000-08:00

E

Tears to be drop
Eye to be rash
Leaving a sad soul
To be struggle in its state
The cry that crawl every corner
The pain that never exist begin

M

Its the most powerful force
That could drive someone to change
That could bring wrong thought of mind
And even bring death of guilty
Shall thou be be cleasen away
Of the land of happiness

O

Very well To all ppl who facing depression
That how life is it...always be cheerful
So u will noe how life is meaningful
Life is hard....

Manakah Keunikan Malaysia?

2008-11-13T06:20:00.000-08:00

Wahai kawanku
Marilah kita bersama
Menjadi perwira dalam peperangan
Yang membawa kesengsaraan ini
Hanya dengan kekitaan
Dapatlah kita mencapai
Sesuatu yang diingini
Merdeka

Tanah airku yang dicintai
Sebab anjing penjajah
Kau ditindas and dicemari
Dilukai pada setiap sudut
Kerana kebodohan kita
Menjadi mangsanya

Kini kebebasan dilihat
Tetapi perpaduan dihanyut
Dalam ketamakan manusia
Yang mementingkan kuasa
Dalam pentas parlimen
Manakah kebajikan rakyat
Yang sering dihujah
Telah pemimpin berjanji

Bilakah mereka akan insaf
Semuanya sudah lewat
Apabila dunia sampai ke akhirat
Pertarungan dalam gelanggang politik
Harus ditamatkan
Dengan kedamaian dan sama rata
Hak rakyat dan bukan seabai-abainya
Kedudukan orang Melayu pada hari ini

Era of Darkness

2008-11-13T06:02:00.000-08:00

Its started to happen when my desktop down. Filled with boredom, all i could do is sit down and start my revision. Just i realised i haven catch up all my biology topics and my history facts. This cursed me to finish it with my friend's aid. Even i have screwed up these subjects, i told myself, Hah theres no way who can take me down easily, even the challenges of life! Recall my thoughts, i possessed a old and rusty handphone which is "inherited" =.=. What is more i could only looked at her number. Hesistated, i didnt even try to call or send message to have a conversation with her. It was cold where i was thinking. "What is the purpose of life anyway, where i cant even get to talk with someone which i like?" Doubt my skills that cant help me to survive the globalization nowadays. There is one more idea which i always claimed myself as the God. Hahaha i might be overcofident sheeshh.. Ambition for getting rich and fame.....is just a dream that will never come true............. Crying at the corner, was thinking how am i going to fight with the nightmare that have been haunting me for years.......i sighed and told myself "Darkness within my heart". To create a cure for this nightmare is one hell of the party to suceed .... The era of darkness....... almost going to be crazy inside me...i just hope i can overcome this test.............Please let me have my dream inside my deep sleep then i will be happy =)

End?

2008-11-07T19:37:00.000-08:00

......It is sad to have the last day of the school after these 5 years in this big family. Most of us would be really enjoyed with the moment with cherished together. Its our fate that we get to study and play while sing in a same school. I would like to give thanks to all the teachers that have been teaching us like farmers which work hard to nourish the young seedlings , friends who have been accompany in this herd and choir members that are lovely singing birds that live up the field at day and even night. Last but not least, it is a great honor to be one of the scale in the fish. It always take a strength of the tribe to hold up the power beyond god. Remember, the last day of the school is the beginning of a new story. So, I will be glad to take my step down to the hill from the top of it. There are more road ahead, more higher cliff to be climbed. Comrades, let it be one of the victory we achieved as a graduated secondary student. "Even we have cross the vicious ocean, there will be more danger ahead in the island. " Good luck, may your days be long and your hardships few......

Apologizes

2008-09-27T08:58:00.000-07:00

Sorry i couldnt do much better,
For a loser that dont have the power,
The shattered will of mine,
Drop me out of the vision.

Sorry i couldnt hold much stronger,
For a guy that don't have the strength,
Its weakness exposed,
Can be fatal and bring death to him.

One that need to be forgiven,
Is someone that have the right way,
Follow the path of righteous,
The justice will guide you the way.

One that need to be helped,
Should be those who must have the mind,
To forge a path of great future,
Shall it be the way to go.

Sorry i couldnt do much,
To liften your burden of hardship,
What i have tried hard,
Perhaps is just a illusion to you,

Do you care or do you mind,
The answer i seek is just that far,
Oh forgive me because im pathetic,
Thinking a change could be good.

But it is wrong to do so,
The rights i take is not right,
Sorry that i mustn't ask,
For the life that u live.

The mind that i shouldnt have,
It is sorry to continue that,
Maybe i wasnt suppose to be here,
Is it not that what you wanted?

I know that things shldnt be happening,
But its too late to apologize,
Asking for another chance,
Do i even deserve it?

The Choir McD Outing

2008-09-27T08:46:00.000-07:00

Have a fun day today =) hehehe quite satisfying. Before we went to the outing in Desa Jaya, me, Michael, Wai Hoong and Kien Lam went to the cyber cafe. CoD4!! Call of Duty hahaha Played with Michael brother and his friends included Doomweaver (in WoW) which was already there. Bang of guns and Headshots could be seen... it was quite a thrill...Not to left out the wow battleground haha.... Then we went to the McD outlet. I guess we were the first to arrive there... Woah...okay one by one the choir members came and our advisor teacher, Miss Low. hehe With those loads of burgers and cokes, not to forget fries... we had it finish lolz Mr flurrry eeesssskkk!
Oh more flashs NOOOOO! too many crazy snapper around =='' Lucky i was not the target =P
And then we sang two song which is Chan Mali Chan and LenggangKangkong!!! Unexpected those children in the outlet clapped for us even they are celebrating someone birthday !! HEHE thanks alot =P Kinda fun still, we had our group picture together as a team! CHOIR =) tThis is what we are a singing group....Well I dont wanna be the guy i guess =.='' since Wai Hoong keep got himself killed @_@ LOLZ!!!! Hahha stay tuned hehehe

Firegrass

2008-09-22T03:52:00.000-07:00

Searing plant of a kind
The new thoughts borned
Curious by mankind

Mistook for their intention
Misuse for its potential
Stunned its growth

Crazed for its power
Used for destruction
Bring misfortunes

End with a forbidden
Left into darkness
Stand without water

Burning itself
Looking for light
Grasp for its soul

The new land
Reigned with greens
Hidden and unseen

Triumph of evil
Shall it avoid
To change its past

Filled with cuts and ashes
It will remain
Until the day it withered

Firegrass lived
By camouflage
For another day

To prove its existence
Not to be a slave
For the damnation

I'm Tagged! (Again!)

2008-09-22T00:17:00.000-07:00

1. The last person to tag you are?
Michael

2. Your relationship with them?
Friend of mine

3. Your 5 impression towards them?
Kind,helpful,friendly,cheerful,playful

4. The most memorable thing that they have ever done for you?
Not really.....perhaps is the things we done together with the choir =)

5. The most memorable words that they have say to you?
Im not an asshole?

6. If they become your lovers you will..
Impossible -_- unless im homo plox

7. If they become your enemies, you will..
Do not want it to happen

8. If they become your lovers, they have to improve on..
(Cancel this part since im not gay *CHEER*)

9. If they become your enemies, the reason is..
Maybe he have hurt someone i loved

10. The most desirable things to do for them is..
Might help him to improve his Bm, help him pass

11. Overall impression towards them is..
Good,no comments,a good friend

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
"Hes an asshole, show off......, are u out of your mind,GILA!?''

13. The character for you for yourself is?
Helpful

14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
Jerk-off?

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
To be a normal person

16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.
I really appreciate what you have give me the most, as im always being left out, thank you for being the most understanding and sharing person to me which is my kai mui. =) im really touched......

17. Ten people to tag.
- Sissy Chien Wen
- Cute Jaclyn
- Handsome Man Andrew
- Lively Ee Shan
- Professor Smart Kah Kuin
- Dearest kai mui,Pei Yee
- Little Huan Yik
- Cheeky Eugene
- Taekwando Guy Kien Lam
- Wudo Guy Wai Hoong

18. Who is number 2 having a relationship with? [Cute Jaclyn]
Ask her she haven reveal yet.....a guy in.... *Censored*

19. Is 3 a male of a female? [Handsome Man Andrew]
Well, hes a male from Portugal i guess

20. If number 2 and 9 got together, would that be a good thing? [2-Cute Jaclyn/ 9- Taekwando Guy Kien Lam]
Well, i would love to see how they work out

21. How about 1 and 4? [1-Sissy Chien Wen / 4-Lively Ee Shan]
It can be the worst nightmare because of number 1

22. What is number 6 studying about? [Dearest kai mui, Pei Yee]
Shes in IT hahaha, a smart girl =), not to forget comel hehe

23. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
Chien Wen,Jaclyn,Andrew, Ee Shan, Kah Kuin, kai mui, Huan Yik, Eugene, Kien Lam, Wai Hoong.....hahaha quite often perhaps

24. Is number 4 single? [Lively Ee Shan]
I think readers must not know too much haha....shes a virgin anyway =P

25. Say something about number 2. [Cute Jaclyn]
Shes kinda adorable and funny, hahaha =), a friendly girl

Struggle

2008-09-14T06:46:00.000-07:00

Cry could be heard but what can be done. In this helpless world, we could only watch other to bleed meanwhile we are suffering. Is the limit of the human minimize? Still, i did not take this theory to be seen in the world. The Lord of the underworld have eyes everywhere which he put its trap and deranged. Human, pathetic insects could only just run and scream through the way. What is more even shes one of my closest, my kai mui. i know even how hard i tried to help, i couldnt make much difference. What is more, my soul is slowly incinerated by the hell fires. This shows perhaps thats how stupid to be a good guy rather than the old me, which was instucted by it cause chaos and destuctions. Maybe disobeying its orders is not a good idea at first. The Suffering is always here, my curse could not be removed anymore. i noe my time is nearly up. With the urges of evil lurks around me, i could only see the valley of bones in front of me. i must say i have to do everything before it come and took me away. Traffic time still fear me as that will be my fate of the future...........sleeping on the road.............

Retirement and Installation of Choir SMKKB - Comments on ME? @_@

2008-08-31T10:23:00.000-07:00

Its is the day. The day which is a great day which soar high and mighty. One nice and well-planned ceremony. The Retirement and Installation of Choir SMKKB!!! TADA! it was held after the school. And then junior and senior had a small chat with recording camera on. I was very nervous and dont know what to say. Anyway juniors came and clean up the class for us too. im pleased with their helps. Later on, it is the meal time! We have a small break during the lunch. Especially the karipup i loved the MOST LOL! And 12 boxes of 3 months old ice cream! OH GREAT !! after that the ceremony begin with a gift giving ceremony =). Nice box and a memories book which i appreciated =X! Thankz to the editor which is May Sean? and others i guessed hehe! Those comments were very nice.... =.= Thanks anyway and it coming folowing with a slide show which is full of memories in choir! Ah how things could be gone back to the past and give me the chance to sing once more =)! Theres so many songs like The Lions Sleep Tonights, Perwira, Tea for two, Cemerlang Germilang Terbilang, Amigos Para Siempere, berjaya, Do Re Mi.................And the Interview session came up OMG!!! i was kinda dumb inside the video T_T oh we BARISAN NASIONAL will always thanks shu ting for giving the seniors a new TITLE muahahaha! BN XD!

Comments from the Juniors..........
Soo Ying and Min Li =>>>
We are glad to be your juniors! All of you have cherish our memories, although Nithia sometimes "garang" a little bit, Ps : Chien Wen very good to bully Oo! [Michael smile more =) so that more girls "kao" (chase) you! wahaha!]
Joanne, you very good and kind o!

Xue Er =>>>
Hoi! Hoi! Good n funny senior! +U!

Lim Ee One =>>>
Gambate in your SPM and STPM!!

Jie Jiun =>>>
you all very nice to bully!

Paviteraj =>>>
is a good helpful friend. Good uck in your SPM

Chee Yung =>>>
Good Luck in your examination..hope your SPM can all get all A's Good Luck ~ don't forget me

Huey May =>>>
Good Luck and all the best in your SPM exam

Kam Whye =>>>
Hmmm,thoguh to say, I've not really been through you yet. Just that I know that we've been talking WoW alot! LOL Still, a nice guy to be with. Cheers Big Bear!

Kien Lam =>>>
Fast Learner and a good baritone, that's what you are. A smart guy too, so Im expecting great results in your SPM. Study hard, play hard, sing hard XD

Win Yee =>>>
hmm...you are quite a playful and talkative but can be quite serious sometime too. Just one small reminder is not to get angry easily and smile more Good Luck in SPM!

Hui Nee =>>>
Mathematics genius! No problem in ya SPM then! I'm exactly your opposite [I hate Maths]. Guess this is goodbye. "GaryGoh" a name that will always be remembered in choir SMKKB. Good luck in ya studies. Take care

Jie Ying =>>>
Hi, nothing much to say actually. Dont bang your head against the wall.go punch the pillow instead. Remember everyone in choir, come back to visit us if possible, keep in touch! Anyway Smile Always! Take Care! All the best and Good Luck in SPM!

Shu Ting =>>>
haha! You're fun, lively and cheerful. And having a so-called affair with Sim Cheng : ) Dance more and enjoy! Good Luck! Party Always =)

Michelle =>>>
Hey Garyyyy...it's cool that your singing can reach til soppy. Lol. Enjoy laughin at your misfortune. Dun get mad k. Juz joking. Practice your dance more Lolx. Good luck in your future undertakings

Khyai Yarn =>>>
Good Luck in SPM Goodbye!! Haiz, thx for your support every we perform and comp. IF without u, tenor will be the weakest! Die very appreciate your contribute from fomr 4 until now... Thx you. Time to say goodbye!

Ee Shan =>>>
let c... what should i say???? Well Honesty. errrr...should I say....but no offence wor....I...feel like u r abit ... abit only....weird...oppss..cool...calm down....But then.... after knowing you more, my impression toward u change, u can be helpful....can be mixed around ....just that ... control your temper!!! nah if you angry now....u reli nid to change urself...But...If you do not, oh...congratz... u did i, u so m I....to change u.... haha =P Perasan!!! Last but no least... Gambateh... Gud Luck in ur Spm!!! All the best N dun 4gt Me this ...errrr... sangat kacau d.... =P Happy Alwiz

Jaclyn =>>>
A person tat who lyk to call me Jacky...hahaha. quite a cute name. I know you often have a lof of pressure But somehow keep clam. I know you are upset in love... your kai mui XXX. but ...just be patient! you sure find your true love one day... I will support u de ooo... You;ve given the choir a lot of hapiness throughout this year. Thanks a lot... Anyway, achieve well in Spm and grab all the A's

May Sean =>>>
Hey Gary...=P I remember there's a period when we chat almost everytime I online right. That was around Carnival Day. And that Cheezy Fries. Yea.Only that time i got to know more about you. You like cooking, singing,....crap? Lol. Dont look down at yourself. each human is born with his/her own specialities. Tou have YOUR OWN specialities,too. JIAYOU in SPM and everything! BEST of Luck! Do visit us in the future.

SMKB choir miss ya......

2008-08-20T04:32:00.000-07:00

Yea, choir we have finally won a 2nd place in the manifestasi competition lagu rakyat. Thank all for sacrificing your time and put it in choir for this competition. NICE prize money and certificate which is beautiful. Although friday will be my last day of performing, Im very happy and excitied with the joy at the stage. Once again after this holiday, Me and form 5 gonna retired soon. The moments we spend together is a blessing. Thank you choir for giving me a good place for me to enjoy the song we sang together. I LOVE you SMKB CHOIR and ALL MEMBERS OF SMKB CHOIR!!!!!! We all rocks! We trampled the ground and pierced through the cloud of the sky. WELL DONE XD. I will always miss SMKB CHOIR

First dilemma - A reminder

2008-08-20T04:13:00.000-07:00

One more striking force fear me. The crippling power. The blow on my head with the dizzy curse made me fell down and fainted. This made me lost my consciousness and went lying. Within a time, i woke up and found myself in a good condition. im relieved to be able to look at myself. Thinking back my thoughts, i was brainstorming what should i do next......maybe i do not have enough time......what happen if i faint again and see myself in another place......haiz...things just remind me of my pasts with her....A good time that i never forget it forever. This might just going to come to an end. Before that i wanted to say i love you for the supports and helps and cares you have gave me the most............

To : Kai mui

Time flew so fast in a blink
Looking back to the hourglass
Thinking the days we spent together
Is a blessing of Hope
I will be here as always
pray and bless you
My trust and hands will be there
To reduce share your burden
Thank you so much
for making my life
a better way to live
my dearest sister

YOU ROXXX! =)
GOOD LUCK IN YOUR COURSES AND TRIAL EXAM

Traveller

2008-08-20T03:54:00.000-07:00

One figure one appearance,
A shadow could be seen,
Which is nothing,
But just an unknown.

What is this and what it is,
What is hidden behind the scene,
Guess and prediction,
Lead to the unsolved.

A passer by perhaps?
One who never stay?
It is not distracted,
Nor changed by any sources.

The reality shown.
Walking with cold heart,
Not any flames could warm it,
A surging wave beyond it.

One devoted heart,
One strong will,
The road which he took,
The steps must go.

The chosen path,
The pushing force,
Nothing could stop him,
Thats the way of a traveller.

15 Facts- You're tagged!

2008-07-22T05:30:00.000-07:00

Rules :
1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!!

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1. I always have headache anytime.
2. I like to daydreaming when im alone.
3. I like to seek attention.
4. Im always silly minded.
5. I enjoy singing which i cant put the feeling sometime
6. I like to chat with my kai mui which is pei yee
7. I always get anxious easily when encountering new stuff
8. I like to train my martial skills for self-defense ( NO HARM for innocent)
9. I don't like people that are racism and selfish.
10. I always want to be good to prove my weakness is not true (which nobody knows)
11. I ocassionally will suffer inner pain and cramps. (Wonder whats wrong with me)
12. I hate sarcastic people as they are lame
13. I do not like people that don respect to others especially our MORAL teacher (Screw Her)
14. I like to design stuff and objects sometime for a break from study.
15. I see things in the other way because theres a unspoken secret.

I will now tag :
Pei Yee
Wai Hoong
Kien Lam
Ai Teng
Michelle

And everyone that reads this post within 24 hours of this being posted. Enjoy!

The Suffering

2008-07-22T01:39:00.000-07:00

For so long, i have been suffered to this curse.Perhaps this curse will stick with me forever. But lately i feel that my headache occur more often and i got a bad feeling about this. i dunno what can i do with this. There more symptoms happened around which show signs. These signs have give me a force to push me up to do something. the suffering may continue but it may end soon. before its over, i should do something which i desired so. but before the suffering end, i hope i wont bring any pain to anyone. But for those people who dislike me, i hope they dont get too happy either......because u all are bastards...................

To My Kai Mui

2008-07-21T09:04:00.000-07:00

Here is a song which is modified from Chan Mali Chan haha because it caught my interest =)!
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Di mana dia, kawan baik saya?
Kawan baik saya ada di tepi saya,
Di mana dia, adik comel saya?
Adik comel saya yang pakai baju biru.

Chan mali chan, chan mali chan,
Chan mali chan, ketipung paying

Kalaulah jemu, hendaklah keluar,
Singgahlah cari saya berlapang
Carilah peluang, jangan ditangguh,
Terlambat nanti kita menyesal.

Chan mali chan, chan mali chan,
Chan mali chan, ketipung payung

Akar menjalar, pucuk bertemu,
Setinggi galah, setinggi pohonnya,
Jika kamu IT berjaya,
Saya akanlah berasa bangga.

Chan mali chan, chan mali chan,
Chan mali chan, ketipung payung

Kalaulah ikan sama sungai ,
Makalah renang bersama menikmat ,
Kalaulah kita memang berjodoh,
Suka Duka dikongsi sama.

Chan mali chan, chan mali chan,
Chan mali chan, ketipung payung.

Although it sucks >.<, hahaha just get the meaning from what i written there hehe.
Hope my kai mui always be happy and healthy ^_^!

Meaningful Life - 1

2008-07-20T06:51:00.000-07:00

This is perhaps the 1st meaningful post. Finally we get to have our class to take the photos which I have waited for a long time. Although it have been dragged for so long, the memories we shared is invaluable. Even thou, there is still so unfortunate events happened. I was happy to see our class have enjoyed the photo taking session. After that the choir practice is still quite a sucess without the pathetic person around. It was quite nice and harmony but I get to sing high which made my throat uncomfortable haha. After that, I went back home and online as usual. Then, i notice at my kai mui friendster. She posted the name kai gor and stated that she like to chat with me hahahahahaha. I really touched and appreciated that she do so T_T. Perhaps my way of thoughts was wrong and I should change myself to think in a better way... Thanks a lot kai mui, I sayang you hahaha..........................................By the way, more inner pains again!Oh God, please remove this curses from me which have been sticking with me for so long.........haiz...

The impossible

2008-07-14T00:20:00.000-07:00

Ridiclous why would i think so? urgh my head........thinking what should i do, keep myself stuck in a decision which is a waste of time. Maybe i should just give up everything since i failed so much. my wrist, leg and body................ what happen?these things just keep impale me from doing one. maybe it does exist....but............i do not know what more i can do.............but the time is ticking away.....every second..........ervery minute...........every hour.............every day............every week..............every month..............every year.............every decade...........every century...........im just disguise myself in order to approach her maybe. but this does not seem right..... maybe shes just treat me as a friend afterward after for so long ........ i really never think theres a better people to replace her .................even so, it may not be as perfect as her............... oh .................you gonna drive me crazy ..................!!!! haiz............

i am finished...am i?

2008-07-14T00:13:00.000-07:00

Wondering all the past..............it seem that i going to be finished soon if i cant continue to persist. Having trouble getting help to support me, im the only left to take over the burden. my dream is no longer come truth since im weak. What will going to be happen after im finish......i just cant imagine the future changes.....even with my sight, i don not think that this is the beginning of the suffering.. By now, it is a must for me to push things up even if it is beyond my power until last minute.............thinking alone once again, am i really finish or is there anyone who would like to help me? It may be too impudent sometime but ..............i really love her so much.......what should i do? oh please God, please give me ur light of guidance.......................

Meaningless Life - 4

2008-06-30T05:40:00.001-07:00

Even after im just came back from the trip, things still roll on. Just went choir having meeting about apology for left out seniors, this have give me a recall of my memories... Those bad memories which i always dont like. The insult and disrecpect from those people. i still cant let it go and i dont hope to see them in school also. why there is so much suffering to bear with. my wrist and my leg were cut badly...... and i have to withstand the pain..... my worthless life should have be took away but instead it remained. And the eerie sound, the inner pain, the chest pain, i almost could not cope with it anymore. but for my loved around, i have to stay around to give them the best i can.. i hope my hourglass sand freeze so i can have good moment which could not be forgotten...........................................................At least, i still have not tell her the 3 words which i longed to tell her.........

My Countless Wishes

2008-06-26T08:02:00.001-07:00

Countless wishes as i want..................but how many can i get... i want to have a bright future....... i want to have my driving licence.........i want to have a good job............................i want to have my own laptop......................i want to have my own handphone...............i want to get Straight As for SPM............................i want to get a house of my own............................i want to have a decent girlfriend.......................i want to have a good time with my family..................i want to go travel the world.....................i want to have my hip-hop trained welll.............i want to have my singing train welll.....................i want to have my own singing group.....................i want to have my academic result done well..............i want to involve in gymnastics........................ i want to be helpful to one others...........................i want to get my martial art skills trained.......... i want to be with my only loved one....................i want to bring my family a better place to stay.......................i want to go shopping................... i want to go play hockey..............................i want to have a good memories which can be cherish with my kai mui............... But what is more.......................is just countlesss dream which will never come true................... because this is just a stupid thoughts which never gonna be reality..................i still wish that i could really get to hold her hands and tell her i love you......................... this is just merely my own imaginations........................... One day, i do hope i could really suceed it................

Meaningless Life - 3

2008-06-24T09:30:00.000-07:00

One more meaningless day......................which is my birthday........i should be happy which was not. it was a very pathetic day. Awaiting for my family members. i was lonely now in front of computer, left with my brother which is somehow sleeping. i dunno what to say much. it was merely almost the next day. Just as i cut the cake, my father came back. i was much rather disappointed with the absence of my family members.. somehow not even a whisper could be heard. It was a silent and beautiful night. I looked at the glittering stars at the hanging curtain of dawn and asked, "Have you abandon me, Oh God,"thinkng in my heart. Suddenly, i barely can move my right hand. my right hand.......... I was wondering what happen if i cant write next time or it is just a temporaily effect...Celebrated without lit up the candle, i have made one wish, " i hope all my family members and my friends could be more happy with their lives" my last hope to all my beloved family, friends and closest one. My only wish to all, please grant me this wish ...................oh please grant me this wish............

Meaningless Life - 2

2008-06-24T09:12:00.000-07:00

i hated to say this... but there are more clashes which i met. There is so much stress around lately. i wonder if i still can cope like old times. i neither a working machine nor a robot. Why is it keep repeating.. which i really dont like to meet. Know not much of myself either, i cant do anything. Choir practices, project works, stress from teacher , and endless nags from my parents, teases and criticism from those jerks.....i cant really afford to stand a chance against so many encounters in once.. feeeling blue and breakdown is nothing more left to do. Moody times always pass very slow which make me very sad till now.......... There is more a irritating hyena which is do something silly especially beside me that makes me enrage! i will like i going to kick and smash him..........i just hate those irritating and useless people which do nothing but just farting around for attention.. For now i shall prevail to not let loose myself..................................... i wont tolerate jerks

Meaningless Life - 1

2008-06-13T08:13:00.000-07:00

The holidays really bored me out. Even all my closest one said so. Either they say me irritating or doing lame stuff. It is so hard to get someone attention which i always couldnt get? My minds is filled with unknown questions... It maybe is my personalities or my look which dislike by peoples.

My friends first things will say im very busy. Then they will start avoiding me. I start pondering if they are even my friends. They surely say something unpleasant. But when i ask another what they doing, they just chating with others..... Thats a EXCUSE to just get me out of their sight.
Even some of my friends take my advantages. The definition of friend, what is it actually? Is someone that dont even say hello with you is friend? What is going wrong?

I was almost wasting my time looking for people to chat and understand me. There is only a few of my friend, which I take them as true friends. Some of them didnt look on the bad way but the other way round. Im glad they didnt treat me as an asshole which everyone did especially my kai mui and some my classmates.

There is still some nice friends to be hang around with. But why majority of them are like this. Urgh i started to think on the silly way. Maybe it is just my imaginations. My instinct told me that im just a kind of stupid fella who always seek of attention. Maybe is just right.... im just an asshole........im just an asshole............ sometime i think life is so meaninglessss........

My sorrow had finally caused me to burst to tears. Although is was quite a shame to cry but i couldn't resist the loneliness that is around me. Lack of love and care, i ran to bed and cried silently while lieing on the bed. Sorry i couldnt say much, perhaps maybe my friends are really busy with their personal stuffs and im the one who always be left out of anything important.
Yet, this is not the end.............i know this is not the end.

The outing in KLCC

2008-06-03T09:52:00.000-07:00

Magnificent... finally get to go out after 3 weeks of holiday. Wow a relaxing day... Better time than typing blog and chating in msn haha. That day me and my friends go there by KTM. Haha couldnt say much about that but some of my friends outfit are sweet! Then when we reached there i can smell the fragnant bug smell, ROTIBOY! weeee one of my favourite. Then we go to the book exhibiton which is this trip purpose. THose books really gonna make me mad. What i like is the song at there. Its nice and rock. But there is a book that also catch my attention but my pocket were just empty. Haiz, then we went for a movie. MY friends pay for it! haha no money lah =X ok the movie DOTz nothing to say... it was almost 5 that time then i think we got lost halfway going back.. kakaka well i do hope for another outing next time which i can spend my precious time with my friends and my beloved kai mui haha. This is the last year we are in the same school. i do hope i can enjoy my time together with them

The new thought, a new beginning

2008-06-03T09:39:00.000-07:00

This new idea have strucked my mind for so long. A singing group.... is it the choir i seek? Well i do like choir, interesting stuff, a lot of friends i can find, neverending chit-chat crap, and stage performances. How i like choir........hahaha This is one i couldnt forget even after my form 5. I always spend most of my time here with my friends which likes to sing together... This is all about choir. With this new thought which called A capella group, i think it may works well too. It is not something uncommon nowadays... alot of reference i could see haha. Unfortunately, there is not enough people interested for it. I wish i could get to perform A capella for some friends and families especially the one who i cared the most, my family, my friends, my kai mui and even her. This is what i wanted to achieve. I will do the best i can. Hope i can get support from them. A new beginning perhaps for a new group

The suffering

2008-06-03T09:35:00.001-07:00

It take me so long for typing this post. Although it have been over for one week. Exam, carnival stuff, malam koko, urgh..... I have to help out and time is getting shorter and shorter... The performance for the malam koko is one i fear. It must be done well... I must put every of my effort in order to train myself well and OF course i have to train another weaker people as well..
Teamwork is everything aiks..........

The Loss...

2008-04-24T05:23:00.000-07:00

Haiz, after so many efforts we still lost. I bet we are not harmony enough in our choir competition compare to another school. AND OUR VOLUME lolz -_-'' i also louya. DOTZ anyway i guess is a good lesson for us to know how important is temawork and practice frequently in choir hahaha! I also loss in certain stuff, -_- loss of confidence ROFL. i dunno what should i do. I only can look and do nothing because people aleady got someone. WHAT for is the needless effort put for. LMAO and hor dun simply spread ar CHOIR MEMBERS -_-'', especially Ai Teng the BIG mouth zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Neither sparks or fireworks gonna happen between us. Lets us see the outcome first......................

NO CRAPING PLEASE =.=''
THANK YOU I BEG U!

Oh man! hell

2008-04-12T02:40:00.000-07:00

Hmm, i juz start Taekwando this week without quitting wushu. That a hell training gonna be. Kick liao and kick again, Jump liao and jump again. =.='' LOL i hope i can get the chance to in the sparring match lolz. ( NO HIGH EXPECTATIONS from myself either -_-'') Erm anyway, i do hope somehow i manage to get pace with my choir training, that is almost pulling my legs down. HAIZ, competiton coming soon, wat to say le LMAO. i do reli hope to get some moral support from my friends for my coming choir competition hahaha NICE ONE!!!

LET THE 18th HELL TRAINING BEGINS! LOL

The Stress Of The Sports Warrior

2008-03-20T00:53:00.000-07:00

Haiz, Sports Day soon coming... Seem marching members is lack of the spirit =.='' As a olddie member, i try my best to help in the marching althought i do skip several time lolz.. Most of the command were in a big changes and the new STUFF is the DRAGON IN the middle lolz. ''GOLD DRAGON CONQUERS ALL'' this slogan is quite nice for the yellow house. I really hope yellow house could gain victorious win for this YEAR as a champion =P. MEANWHILE< i have to suffer the POWER of"Supreme Godress Of homework"

My First Cake Baking Experience

2008-02-27T02:14:00.000-08:00

LOLZ! my first blog wrote abt cake @_@. Anyway i went to Jen Xen house after school. Then me , Jen Xen and joined by Michael also. We start mixed and beated the eggs , sift the flour , chocolate, and the whipping cream. HAHA! the we also played Jen Xen computer. POWER RANGER and BOMBERMAN ROFWL!! After about 25-30minms , WOW a volcanic cake SPEWED UP. The chocolate is poured on it also @_@ YUMMY! i became berserk and licking the leftover chocolates =P. At the end, a fereroo rochee (dunno how to spell >.<) is put on the top lolz. We ate the cake together and felt its not bad but not good either ... Jen Xen mother told urs our mistakes and we also discuss about it. I guess i learn a new things afterall haha!!!